stronger..

every assignments you reject just make me get stronger..
mummy message me and asked me not to cry, i told her i'm not!!
there's nothing to be sad of, i know my lecturer is trying to help me..
so i must be strong, just do whatever i can..

time is not a matter, it depends on me..
am i willing to give it or not..
will i sacrifice my sleep for my assignments?? i guess..
YEAH, i'll do that!! =)

NO WORRIES YITONG, YOU CAN DO IT!!
i believe in myself, do you believe in me??

fingers cross

  

basically, the production is 90% done..
really hope that Shivani approve my design!! fingers cross..

i know the design wasn't good compare to others but please, just gimme a break..

so i checked my mail today, gosh Alex is really kind..

he really help me out with my dolphin thinggy =)

haha how i wish all the lectures are the same..

he said that my info is not enough, and he hope that my design can help me to bring everything up..

haizzz, i wish i can make him proud of me!!

loosing time..

do i have enough time? i asked my friend.
he replied, why not? all you have to do is, 1 week sleep less than 5 hours!! i'm sure your time is more than enough =)
LoLx..
am i going to do that? i questioned myself..
NO, i'm not gonna do that!! i'm not sure for the future, but now no..
i will never do that..

i called Tze yesterday, i asked her am i being selfish if i'm not aiming for D/H.D.. she told me not to bother too much about the marks, just do whatever i have to do.
i tried to recall what Shivani told me the other day, i questioned myself again..
do i really wanna follow everything she said just to get good grades? i mean like what Rifan said, this is gonna be OUR ARTWORK, its gonna be in OUR PORTFOLIO not Shivani's or other.. ITS OURS!!
so why not we do something we like instead of following what she wants??
by the way, if i follow everything she wants will i 100% get a D/H.D?? no one know, at least if now i'm not getting a D/H.D that's my consequences or maybe that's my fault.. i have no one to blame.
do i make sense?

it's kinda surprising when Rifan told me he's tired of the publication subject, cause it's all about InDesign!!
his favorite!! hahaha..
i think is because of Shvani? she wants us to follow her..
we are actually doing what she like now instead of what we like.. i feel boring~~~
not as interesting as it used to be? hmm
anyway, i'm gonna finish everything by this week and get my things print.. i have no time to waste on this particular subject..
it's too unfair for the rest if my subjects~~

i have this production class today, gosh i really feel like crying!!
imma so fucking lost now, Andrew!! can you tell me what you want?? stop confusing me...
last week you said i did a great job and this week you said you don't like the idea..
WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
you're scaring me.. i have only 2 weeks left and you still rejecting my idea, i am really lost..
to be honest, i don't really like my idea too, but at least can you gimme a better idea instead of doing brochure??
i need idea not rejection!! at least lead me, tell me something so i can figure it out myself??..
brochure is too normal~~~

late celebration

thank you Tze, Ben, Felix and Rex for celebrating my birthday with me although is already pass..

hahaa, kinda sad tho cause WanTeng, Jack and Sara couldn't make it ='(

but anyway thankss guys..

so we went to Papparich for dinner XD

one word, disappointed cause the food wasn't that nice today, my dry curry mee is super duper salty!! @.@"

tonight was super cold, so we decided to go for a hot coffee..

i had a cup of cappuccino,  end up sleeping late..

i called sister, and we talked for more than 2 hours!! gosh, i did not touch my work at all.

the purpose of having cappuccino is to stay up late to do my work but haha, who cares~~~

anyway thanksss guys for the lovely night =)

giving up.

i hate the feeling of being reject, and i don't wanna be reject!!

it hurts when your lecturer said things that's sarcastic, but the things he said was right..

i didn't do well in this subject!!

honestly, i'm giving myself up.. do you know how tired am i??

i wonder when was the last time i'm actually enjoying myself??

are all those smiley face really happy or it's just a simple smile without any meaning??

god knows..

i need a shoulder, i want to cry..

but who's there?? i don't see anyone that i can rely on.. i don't feel like anyone can understands me.. (but they always said "i understand your feeling")

sorry, i don't think so, cause the way you relied does not click!!

where are my friends?? eventually, do i have friends?? at least one??

nah, people like me don't deserve to have a friend i guess..

after that 3 hours class, i stayed back to talk to Alex..
he told me not to be stress, i was like what the fuck..

LoLx, i have only 2 weeks more to go and i'm not on track, how can i be not STRESSED?!!

are you fucking kidding me??

thank god he was so kind, he gave me his personal e-mail and he asked me to get through him by that e-mail..

haiz, at least he's kind?? not really helping tho..

Shivani is another problematic lecturer, she just can't understand what does it mean by i have not enough of time!!

she keeps asking me to illustrate the pictures and she said that it's not that hard right?!

LoLx, i know that it's not hard.. but do you know that how long does it consume to path all that picturesssss?? are you crazy?? you think i have a year time to complete my 4subjects?? hello i'm not super woman okay..

gimme a break please..

you thought i don't want my work to be H.D?? you thought i don't want my work to look nice??

damn..

enough of complains, it's the fact.. it won't change ='(

anyway, i've received 3 birthday cards today..
thank guys, you cheer me up!!

especially i received the things i like..

haha..

mummy and daddy sent me a card too!! that's the best gift ever =)

10.05.2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =)

woke up this afternoon, and i can hear my phone buzzing..

peopooool sending me messages wishing me happy birthday, buahahha.. it's so fun, like a boss!!

well, daddy was the first one who wished me cause he said he afraid that he'll forget ='[

haha, but it's sweet tho cause he send me a picture of a cake with a number "2"

yes daddy, i get what you mean, you're trying to say no matter how old am i, i am forever your baby girl right?? hahaha..

thanks daddy!!

mummy send me a message last night too =)

super sweet right?? i don't know why kaken keep complaining about mummy's message..
i guess he's jealous of me, cause i have a cute cute mummy!!

hahaha, just kidding!!

so yeah, today is my big day so what did i do for my big day..

well, i'm sitting on the same spot, wearing my warm warm knit hat start taking a cute picture of myself.. hahaha

just kidding, i know i looked ugly ='(

yes yes, I'm doing this the whole day!! i know it's not the best, i'm still working on it okay XD

hahaha..

i didn't celebrate my birthday today, cause i'm having presentation tomorrow, have to get my things done as you know that birthday is not "dai sai", does it make sense?

and thanks to all the 100++ people who wished me!! i am really happy and appreciate what you guys did.. haha

i wish i can hug each and everyone of you!!

damn, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

haha =)

once again thank you my dear friendsss!!..

stress to the max..

owh my, what a day >.<"

went to bed at 3am++ last night and woke up at 11.40am today, that's bad..

i'm lack of sleep, need to rest more!!

assignments are really killing me, 3 more weeks to go and then i'll be a degree holder =)

GOSH what am i suppose to do?? work kept rejected by the lectures..

you see me laughing outside, but i'm actually crying deep in my heart.

i'm so lost, and i couldn't complain to anyone..

i am afraid that people will compare the previous results and the coming ones..

FEAR, SAD, STRESS..

what else ='[

but after all these end, i will become..